Friday, March 25, 2011
it had been weeks since i'm in day work.
right after shift, i was having my BOT training under uncle ee and some time mr gan.
although it was boring, but then i had learn quite a lot of things.
things that i dont even notice during my 3 months shift!
but what makes it more interesting is the PGC.
wow! didnt know there was so much technology in it.
how i hope one day i can witness the internal parts with my own eyes, and that will be even more cool!
today mark the end of the BOT training.
from next monday onwards, i will be attached under my boss.
i guess i have to start studying this weekend.
i want to catch up the rest asap!
somehow, i was looking forward to it instead of stressing of the qualification test somewhere down the road.
it's like another new chapter of my working life!
:D
my career maybe seems smooth sailing for the time being.
but then, on the other side, it wasnt as good as i expect to be.
not even close, not even near average.
in fact, it was the worst thing that ever happen.
somehow i feel i got "rejected" twice in a row.
nah, dont be misunderstood.
im not talking about bgr.
is something else that i would like you guys to guess.
but anyway, ya, i cried for that matter.
not 1 day, not 2 days, but 3.
yeah, i'm may be silly and childish to do that.
but it shows how much i care for it.
anyway, i've learn to let go.
really have to thank my mentor for listening to my rants that few days, encourage me and cheer me up.
after that day's talk, i feel much more better.
maybe, that's the power of letting it go, free myself from all the extra burden.
what had gone, is already gone.
what does not belong to me, no matter how persistent am i, it still doesnt belong to me.
why not letting it go? at least i make everyone around me and myself better.
why i make myself so miserable day by day?
sometimes, we take up responsibility. we should know how to let it go too.
and yeah, i'm going to free myself.
i'm going to untie myself from 'it'.
sooner or later, is going to be a silent goodbye to all my supportive friends.
i hate to leave them, but what's the point of staying when i dont feel happy at all?
being happy is my most priority.
most importantly, i did not want to be a transparent figure anymore..
my passion for 'it', is no longer here anymore..
some of you may have guess correctly what i had been saying earlier on.
some of you dont.
well, is not a 100 marks test anyway.
im sure there's at least one person who should have guess entirely correct.
i shall not name the person.
but, if you happen to be reading it..
just want to tell you.
i'm very glad to have a friend like you.
you support me, give me strength all along.
you accompany me throughout the sweet and bitter.
all you did for me, i'm really grateful and thankful.
i'm not trying to make our friendship turn sour.
i just want to use this as an opportunity to express my gratitude.
as, we may not see each other as often as the past.
somehow or rather, i feel like we are in 2 different world.
at times i really have no idea what's running in your mind, to be frank.
if our friendship stays close like in the past, i bet this will never happen.
i admit, i'm the causes of this. i dont deny.
i'm sorry.
all in all, i would like to say..
all the best in your future.
do what you think is right for your own self.
heed others for advice, but take it as a consideration, and not your final decision.
rmb, one wrong step will lead to many unhappiness.
i'm sure you are much more clearer than me.
alright. jiayou ba! (:
BEEP-BOOPED@
10:40 pm
welcome! (: