Saturday, September 18, 2010
i had a long chat with one of my best buddies last night.
i have no intention to reveal this person's name here.
go ahead and make a wild guess.
but do watch out for your mouth.
if i happen to hear unpleasant stuff, you will know what's going to happen next.
i may seems to be nice.
but i can be horrible if you force me to.
well.
the conversation lasts for near 3 hours yesterday.
and we started to reflect and expose the ugly side of something.
something that not much people will see.
something that some people may see it through and clear.
indeed, i admit that i didnt notice it until a few days ago.
i was once a carefree and had this 'i-dont-care-much' attitude.
i follow what i want.
in short i listen to my inner self a lot.
but somehow i dont feel good and thrilling like i had before.
somehow i lost touch of my inner self.
i was deaf and blind towards myself.
i was just like a body without soul, and i had remain like this for quite a long period.
until that day..
i had a near 2 hours of thinking.
memories flashes through.. what i once was..
the more i think, the deeper i go.
so deep that i finally could hear and see my inner self again.
it guided me along, make me awake from everything.
shows me how i was being treated and used, which i dont even know.
i said what i thought to this buddy of mine, and yup, my buddy agreed.
and we exchanged some views together.
somehow what my buddy told me is what i thought too.
to having more than 1 person knowing the hidden ugly agenda, it means it is in a road to failure.
it takes years to build up one's trust, but it takes seconds to destroy it.
and my trusts towards it had disappear it after since i know the whole situation.
and i will never going to build any trusts in it anymore.
in fact, i dont even have the intention to do so.
beg me, kill me, scold me, lecture me, brainwash me..
everything you tried, i will never never take in again.
that's how terrible the consequences are if you have taken this path.
for now, is consider safe as out of so many people, only 2 seen it throughly and clearly.
but if more and more starts to see it..
what do you think will happen?
what do you think will happen to your so-called-wonderful-and-smart plan?
i tell you now.
everything will be like a disasters.
chaos, fights. then end up having many casualties.
and the casualties are no one but yourself.
you will suffer the most pain, alone.
because you played with our trusts.
& i really hate you for that.
BEEP-BOOPED@
6:48 am
welcome! (: